I'm so freaking sleepy

I SHOULD BE CRAMMING MY ACADS BUT IM SO SLEEPY UGH
Bye

Time to cram

Bioweek just ended, and another one is coming up... and there are so many things I need to memorize for the 10mm pig.......................

Past bio exams at least I had 2-3 weeks to get my shit together but this time... ma'am Co's rushing it... ugh

Today is cheat day + BIochem exam

I've had exams every 3 days for the past 2 weeks. TODAY IS CHEAT DAY. NO ACADS.
Ate with my dad in Four Seasons buffet too!! Killed myself with shrimp even though I'm allergic hahaha. That's how I walwal kasi.

Earlier this morning, I had my biochem exam. It was okay naman. Much easier than I expected.

Studying for Chem + Cutting is Justified

I'm super super worried about the chem exam tomorrow, because the lectures given by the profs were so shallow compared to what I find in the book. I don't know if I should trust our substitute prof, that what qwill come out in the exam, is just what he mentioned in class-- previous exams had extra info taken from the books. Except in this case, LITERALLY EVERY DETAIL WAS LEFT TO THE BOOKS?? THE LECTURES WERE SUPER SUPER SUPER SHALLOW. I am so confused...

In other news, I cut my physics class today, and had a classmate get my score. I got 95%. Cutting is justified.

Bio Lec Exam 3

I think my new studying style worked!! Just accepting what ma'am Co says as law without studying anything else (like books, old transes, etc) really worked. Sobrang hirap lang talagang intindihin si ma'am Co, but at the same time, the load is much much lighter because I don't study the superfluous shit.

Studying for bio lec is so benign now

Studying for bio lec is so benign now, because I chose to restrict myself to ONLY WHAT MA'AM CO LECTURED. Getting rid of the other details which are super trivial really made it feel much much lighter. I'm so happy that I was finally able to free myself from the trap of annotating previous LU transes -- which are most of the time full of mistakes and contain too much redundant info. Proud at myself for taking stellar notes: recording + picture-taking of ppt + handwriting all in one super useful ipad app. Good job migs.

I was also able to study for chem because of the extra time. Amazing.

Sense of urgency only came today...

The moment I woke up, I felt a sense of urgency. Finally... hahahaha now I have the drive to study SO I SURVIVE HAHAHA

Decided kasi to take a break after the bio lab exam yesterday. Now I gotta prepare for my bio lec exam on thursday, and my biochem exam on Saturday. ggwp

BIO LAB EXAM 3 + quizzes returned

OMG I GOT PERFECT IN THE LAB LQ?!??!?!?!? IMPOSSIBLE!!!
And for lec, I got 21/25!!!

THE EXAM TODAY WAS ALSO SURPRISINGLY BENIGN

OMG THANK GOD FOR DAYS LIKE THESE!!!

On speaking out

I should really learn to be more assertive... especially when I see other people doing things which are wrong. Wala lang. Just got triggered again when I was thinking about the tuli mission. with me being afraid to call out my higher-LU partners. Tsk.

EASY p6 exam

11/10 would do again, learning physics from scratch two nights before the test See you again next month, physics!!

[taken from twitter]

Fuck physics

Fuck this piece of shit subject I don't even know why the hell I need to take this shit. I love math; it's my best subject. But physics is a different monster altogether... what the hell.. plus the profs are really shit. I swear DPSM has a lot of problems with regards to their physics profs no fucking joke

Aced that bio lec + lab quiz

my new studying style for bio worked :) Aced that bio lec + lab quiz definitely. ALL I HAVE TO DO IS JUST ACCEPT WHATEVER COMES OUT OF MA'AM CO'S MOUTH AND I'LL GET HIGH GRADES!!!

No more "extra" shit from the 2021 transes hahahaha

Studying for the DUAL bio lec + lab quiz

The topics for this coming exam aren't as difficult as before, because they are rooted in chemistry, something I have grown to love in my time in imed. What I'm actually scared about is whether or not my new study strategy will work. For previous tests, I had always referred to the transes of the upper LU buddies. But they ALWAYS. ALWAYS. CONTAINED MISTAKES/SUPERFLUOUS STUFF. I think enough is enough. If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself, after all. I'm taking my own notes FROM SCRATCH now (and not merely annotating their transes) while simultaneously recording ma'am CO's sermons 24/7. Tomorrow, I will know if it worked, because I have DUAL BIO LONG QUIZZES HUHUHUHU

On making mistakes

We are only human. We too make mistakes. Reflecting on the mistakes I have done in the past tuli missions, I am convinced that it is my duty to use them to improve myself -- I should not repress them as some others do. Yes, they are mistakes, but why repress the one good thing which may come out of it, self-improvement? They are unavoidable and we must take great care to not make mistakes, but inevitably, we do... When the time comes, it is only right that we keep these mistakes burned into our minds so that we never commit them again. It is the least we can do for our patients who have been put into risk because of our carelessness.

Mistakes last tuli mission:
1. Noticed a mistake a partner made and failed to call him out for it.

In my defense, the damage was done and nothing could have been done. But I should have had the courage to tell him right then and there that what he was doing was wrong so that in the future he would not commit the same mistake. Next time, I will be more assertive even though I am very young compared to these people I am working with.

2. Failed to aspirate before injecting anesthesia

Carelessly I forgot to aspirate. So there was a tiny chance that what I had injected had been injected intravenously which could have potentially caused side effects. Looking back now, luckily I dont think my patient experienced anything out of the ordinary, so I consider myself lucky. Although, the anesthesia wasn't as effective for him.... could this have been a side effect of my carelessness?

3. Accidentally dropped a suture packet

This isnt a major error, because we just had to reopen another pack, pero sayang! I am still a noob, and I dont have the skills to maximize concentration on my patient AND efficiently manage costs.

For the record, I also made mistakes during my first tuli mission. But I also got over them and saw them as opportunities to improve. Specifically, I made mistakes in stitching and in identifying anatomical structures. I made sure that I did not commit the same mistake this time around. And I didn't. My stitches were on point. But yet I got wrong this time what I got correct last time. So that is a lesson in itself, that I should keep on reviewing. Medicine is a lifetime of learning and relearning, after all.

I once felt bad about my mistakes after the first tuli mission, thinking that I was a failure for doing them, and that I should quit going to tuli missions altogether. Nope nope nope. That is the worst thing I could possibly do. The one good thing about making mistakes is that it gives you wisdom and experience. To quit after having made these mistakes is to bury them away as if they have never happened - never to be used to improve oneself or help improve the quality of health for others. In that case, it would be a total waste, because not only did you commit a mistake, but it also didn't bear fruit. At the very least, I should use it to improve myself and others when I courageously tell them about my flaws, in the hopes that they too will learn the lessons I have in my practice.

THE PRODUCTIVITY IS REAL

I've been working since 7pm yesterday to 2am today. Non-stop bio!! GOAL WAS TO LEARN 48HR CHICK. AND I THINK I LEARNED NAMAN!!!

this counts as my post for april 16

GG exams this week

Ahahahaha tentatively, this weekend we have a dual biochem and physics exam, and then a dual long quiz for both bio lec and lab on thursday. What is gg.

Tuli Mission 2.0

MSS had their first tuli mission this year (my second ever) today! I was able to operate on four, with three of them being unsupervised!! Last year, I only was able to do one because of an exam, and that was supervised. I'm so happy that even as early as now, I can be exposed to the practice of medicine.

Listening to my sister's recording of her interview

My sister secretly recorded her interview, and I'm so happy that she had a great time! (The family interview is not so much of an interview as it is an orientation so it was safe to record... ish. Obviously we didn't say so but yeah)

Sister's ateneo family interview! + TEACHING CHEM TO STUDY

Super excited for my sister to finally be inducted as a student in the Ateneo :) I hope it will be as fulfilling a journey for her as it has been for me.

ALSO, I taught chem to my hs friend, Paul. Truly, the best way to study, is to teach it to someone else. So thanks Paul. He was like thanking me so many times kasi wala raw siya alam hahahaha ako naman deep inside thx because of you I ACTUALLY AM FORCED TO STUDY HAHAHAHHAA kasi kung hindi matutulog na lang ako diba lmfao

Proud of myself for going to classes today.

I really, really really wanted to cut today. But I didn't hahahaha. I just studied chem during class. I'm approaching max cuts na kasi. Tempting, but I need to cut responsibly :(

YES NO P6 LAB!!

Dude physics lab is literally the most hassle subject ever. I hate physics (I love math and math is my best subject, but physics is such a gross mutilation of math in my opinion, because it loses its finesse and elegance because physics is empirical BASTA HAHAHA)

SO NOT ONLY DID I CUT PHYSICS LEC AS OF THE TIME OF THIS WRITING, I CAN NOW CUT PHYSICS LAB!!! AND THEN DIRE-DIRETSO FREE DAY TO STUDY CHEM!! WOOO

Note: its okay to cut physics don't judge me. Only 20/40 of the people in the class actually go. It's much more efficient to study more important subjects like biochem/bio and then just cram physics 2 days before. Kaya naman e. We're intelligent in imed. And we actually appreciate analytical thinking as in physics. Its not like bio or biochem where you really have to put in work because if you don't know something, di mo talaga alam. In physics u can bullhsit ur way through as long as ur good at math lol

YAY NO CLASSES

not only is there no classes, but THERE ARE NO CLASSES ON A MONDAY. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS HAHAHAHAHA NO MA'AM CO WOOOOOOOOOOOO NO BIO YESSSSS

[and more time to study for Chem huhuhu with my shitty notes UGH]

DAMN ME FOR MAKING SHITTY BIOCHEM NOTES

Ano ba yan, I'm trying to review my notes, tapos I just wrote down "Listen to the recording I'm so sleepy" OMG WHEN WILL I LEARN HAHAHAHA but I'd like to believe that day I really was sleepy... sigh

It's nice waking up knowing that I don't need to do anything

Actually, the psych group video on conditioning is due tomorrow. but HAHAHAHA I was smart and I suggested to my teammates that we do it during bio lab last thursday, while our teacher was gone (it's super low yield kasi to actually look at the slides, kasi sira-sira na siya, so we usually just hunt for one good specimen tapos pasa-pasa na lang. It's how we do things).  SO now, I don't have to cram anything. Weeeee. This is rare for me lol

So, my "holy week 2.0" is going swell :) this is the calm before the storm

Addicted to Penn and Teller... ahahahha

I discovered this magic show called Fool Us by Penn and Teller and I can't stop watching!!

Also, I cut the whole day today. holy week 2.0 just because. Again dont judge me, the classes I cut are OK to be cut. grrr

Lol didn't wake up in time to study hahaha

Set the alarm at 5 AM. I woke up at 3AM, and reset the alarm to correctly wake me up at 6:30 as usual. Wasnt able to study. Lol gg.

Also, I surely failed that quiz. I would be lucky to get fifty percent.

Too sleepy to study ugh

I should be studying for bio, but screw that. I'll just wake up early tomorrow lol

Successful backing out from chess

Surprisingly I got out alive... neither the dean nor the dept head of PE fried me for ditching the chess team. Big thnks to Janelle who helped me get out by asking as my spokesperson (she had to ditch the table tennis team too and successfully did so)

Chess team problems

So apparently I have a tentative lab exam on April 16, an FCH presentation on April 18, and a tentative lec long quiz on April 19. The last two, I only found about tonight. And I was fool enough to volunteer to join a chess tournament from April 16-19, whole day, overnight. Great. Hope I can get out of this sticky situation unscathed...

Finished Psych Vid

After resetting my computer, I downloaded office 2016 which is provided freely to all UPM students. Now, my computer is fast enough to handle it. Thank God. Productive day finishing psych.